→ 03 Jun 12 at 6 am
busted a fat mission today with my girls <3
aileen alice ashley caroline christina jane joanne julie
woah, a a a c c j j j okay cool.
I want the rest of the pictures :(
We're all damaged.
→ 03 Jun 12 at 6 am
It was senior ditch day today. School felt empty. I liked it like that.
I hope half our school stays home sick of ‘senoritis’ for the rest of this year!
"On the late nights when the stars giggle underneath blanket like fog,
I see men, drunk of words,
Stumbling down vegas strip lit sidewalks,
Metaphors dripping from their ravenous mouths.
They speak in tongues, or so it seems.
They wipe similes from their sleep deprived eyes,
Dreams and reality are no longer separate,
But intertwine between their ink blacked finger tips.
These men are literary lightweights,
Drowning themselves in Bukowski and Poe.
Then when they have filled their gullets,
They puff the thick smoke of Whitman and Neruda.
These men are the devourers of words.
They line street corners, shadows posted up on the walls
Of 24/7 bodegas, where a nickel cost a dime.
Like inebriated sentinels, their quiet mouths are
Lined with aesthetic one liners like:
She kisses like a sweet devouring, and I don’t know where to touch her,
Because I want all of her or
The less I needed, the better I felt
And better did they feel with nothing.
Kept their pens strapped to their bottles, they wandered
Darkened streets with dagger like tongues.
When the nights begin to creep to an end,
They clutch pages of Hemingway and Plath,
White knuckled as they drift off into a cloud like slumber
Mumbling letters to distant pen pals.
Dear Moon,
How did you get the sun to fall so deeply in love with you?"
"I’m trying not to fall apart."
So today, I read something about psychology and in that thing it said people who sleep a lot are lonely. All I ever do is sleep. Now I feel really lonely. Now I can’t sleep because I feel too lonely and sad.
Deep inside I wish you thought about me, not her. I wish you told me you loved me and missed me, not her. I smile on the outside and pretend that everything’s okay but everything’s not. I have to watch the person I love love and miss someone else, and it hurts. I don’t get why I’m not enough, for you. What is so great about her. I can treat you better, I can do better, I am better. Oh well. I can’t change anything but deep inside, I wish the person you loved and missed was me. I wish that that was me, not her. I wish.
Just a funny thought because I read something else but, you obviously have no skills in getting a girl at all because you fucking homie hop like a bitch. Try getting a girl that has no connections to your ex’s man. You’re really pathetic. I’m not even being mean or shit talking, you’re just ridiculously pathetic. You should stop before you embarrass yourself.
There are so many things I want to do with you as a couple, and there are so many things I want to do for you as your girlfriend, only you. I’ve had so many gift ideas and couple plans in the past when in previous relationships but time and the person themselves never allowed me to do a lot of things I’ve wanted to do but honestly, I’m glad I haven’t yet because then, it wouldn’t be special if and when I get a chance to do it for you; someone who deserves it, someone I want to do it for, someone I wouldn’t regret doing anything for. I will not be in a relationship during high school unless it’s you.
